she was sick
pooping blood
i was holding her when they put the needle in her
she just fell
it was so quick...she was sitting and i was holding her then she slumped over
her head just fell and her eyes were still open
i wanted to reverse it right there
please
god
PLEASE
i cant stop crying
BRING HER BACK
PLEASE
PLEASE
BRING HER BACK!
i was so mean to her
always yelling at her
getting mad
im so sorry
im sorry
please come back
im sooo sorry
just come back
she looked so dead but she was still warm
she felt alive
her heart was beating
then we had to leave her on the cold table
just leave her
like that
her ol smelly self
my jacket smells like her
i took pictures this morning
mom said we might have to put her down
i thought it only fair
mom didnt get to say goodbye
poor mom
how could i have been such a horrible person
i love her
i love you topsy
please come back
i wont be mad anymore
i dont care if you poop on my bed
goodbye tops
my tipsy turvy :) <3