2004-01-02 : crying tears of sorrow
hey guys hope yall had a great new years eve. mine started out just fine and then i dont know. yesterday i had 4 baths i know super weird but i did and then i got ready and purty my hair was slightly twisted and curly which looked cool for about 5 min lol before it fell apart. but i went to sams and i got there nikki was there we all went to the store to get some dip or w/e it was freezing and then we came back kirsten marlee and shannon were there now so lol there was the party nikki stayes...geez my mom walked in and w/e and put this thing down so she couldt read what i was writing and shes like what were there guys at the party? like she assumes im some sort of slut and i told her already it was jsut us girls, sams rents were there for fucks sakes. honestly and i was like you dont trust me and she said no i dont and ive been good for 2 weeks nothing bad or anything and shes balh blah xmas day i didnt get the gifts i wanted so i was mad what does that have to do with trust and she blah trust takes a long time to build i dont care im not a tramp if there were guys there i would have told her and here i am crying again so much i dont know inside this is the 3rd time tonight i cried and im bawling silently....anyway back to the night nikki left at 730 or 8 type thing and then it was blah for a bit because marlee brought her mags and sam and her were reading the 2 mags she brought so shannon kirsten and i sat ther all blahed and then it got fun cause sam i got to go now my mom is pissed at me said i pulled an attitude so ill write tomorrow geez i miss home shes making me go to bed