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2003-10-11 : they really care
well brad was totally freking yesterday night lol. i scared teh shit out of him he never knew i was suicidal at all its been like that for 2 years. and when he heard i actually hung myself and the rope broke lol i laughed he freaked. but i took that as a sign and stopped over the summer i was fine adn then like last ngiht i carved my wrists and he wouldnt get off the phone in case i did anything stupid he really loves me and hes like ur my big sis thats not a great role model. i was like meh who cares and so he was like promise u wont cut urself and ive taken pills and shit and im like i wont cut myself and hes like or do anything to harm me in anyway and i was like and to almsot anything and then i like hung up

he came on msn and freaked saying call and promise so i blocked him and then 5 min later i called adn he went bananas lol. it shows how much someone really caares about you. but that analogy about how im a broken piece of glass i told him that and hes like but i will fix you. and ya so i felt great especially whe he emailed me and was like please i love you dont do anything stupid do it for me and it was way sweet lol he was like im sry i havent been there for you over the last 2 years and now ur to far away but please i love. and he sent an attachment with the email. i cant believe he saved that lol it was a question thingy saying who is msot like family to you and i said brad and i filled it out all about brad lol and he emailed that with it and i emailed him bk saying u did that on person didnt you? so im now waiting for an email from him and ill call him at like 10 or 11 his time so like 1 or 2 my time

and i was talking to kalie about going to spain and then we talked about butt toilets and then it was funny. and you know what i was liek what if i came to the mall while u and ryan were on a date and she was like i would TOTALLY ditch ryan and he could come if you wanted him too and i was like yes im so much more important then ur bf lol and shes like of course friends come 1st thats awesome eh?

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